Insomnia

I am very, very tired, but I can’t sleep. What better time than to go ramble on my blog?!

Wa-hey, I have a blog. I keep forgetting. I’ve gotten out of the habit of thinking of things to post.

When I was in highschool, I had this idea in my head that I should really keep a (private) journal, because every once in a while I’d realize that I was framing things that happened to me into narrative, but I never wrote any of it down. I never got around to doing that.

It was actually one of the reasons I first thought it would be a very good idea to get a computer. Because if I had a computer, I could write things down there. My handwriting sucks, and typing out a journal on my typewriter (yes, I had a typewriter) seemed a bit silly.

Like I said, though, I never got around to doing it. Just writing for myself never seemed like enough motivation.

A decade or so later, I decided I could make my homepage more interesting by posting stories and observations and stuff there. And that was nice. And then the whole blogging thing started to happen and I decided to get on-board with that. All because every once in a while I get things in my head that want to get out.

And I still get those, but I’ve never quite managed to get into a consistent routine about getting things out there.

NaBloPoMo actually helped, even though I didn’t quite make it. Apparently they’re making every Mo’ a NaBloPoMo. It’s not blog365, which seems like a bit of overkill for me, but maybe I’ll take up the challenge again in March or April.

I’ll have to think about it.

I have the stories running through my head, but they’re harder to tell right now. Work is interesting, but I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t get anything out of it. Trying to tell work stories is really hard, because trying to come up with something abstract to talk about that isn’t specifically about what I’m working on, yet isn’t so abstract as to be devoid of any meaning… that’s tough. I’m pretty happy with my personal life, but since another person is involved, I’m a lot more reluctant to talk about it.

Those two things are taking up a sizable portion of my headspace at the moment, so I suppose it’s not too surprising I’m having a hard time writing long dissertations on other stuff.

My brain is going all fuzzy now. I’m tying this in bed on my new(ish) laptop. That’s another thing I really should write about. I have things to say! Just not right now.

Maybe if I turn it off I’ll be able to get some sleep…

3 thoughts on “Insomnia

  1. matt

    Sorry to hear about the insomnia. Been a while since I’ve had to deal with anything like that, but I don’t remember it being a whole lot of fun.

    Don’t lose heart with the whole blogging thing. I’ve pretty much entirely given up on it, realizing that I either want to write something longish and detailed, or just post a quick “Cool! Look at this!” kind of thing. I know there are blog formats that are supposed to support this, but they just don’t feel right.

    If nothing else, take up your challenge to write for yourself. The good news, is you don’t have to worry about a fancy publishing mechanism for that kind of thing!

    Anyhow, system76 seems kind of neat. Nifty take on supporting wildlife preservation.

  2. Darcy Casselman Post author

    I’m not about to give up on blogging; I’m just working through (for myself, mostly) why I haven’t been posting much lately. I mean to! Honest! It just doesn’t seem to happen.

    I find a rambly post is just a good thing to do to get myself back into the habit.

    As for insomnia, I think I was just too tired to sleep. It was a special circumstance and not really a recurring thing. I figured if I forced myself to stay up for an extra hour, my body would eventually give in and go to sleep on its own. Kinda reverse psychology. And it worked. Although the stupid cat got me up too early…

  3. matt

    Cats, dogs and kids are the bane to restful nights of sleep.

    Good to see that things seem to be back on track!

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